‘don’t go in there alone’ she warned. so, like perry, like admunsen, like hillary, i took someone with me, a pro. i tried a behaviourist, a freudian, and i don’t know what. rft, cbt, meditation, prayer, you name it., but ultimately, we’re alone. or are we? maybe alone-ness is the ultimate illusion, the real monster.
here’s annie dillard’s take on this wild ride (from ‘total eclipse’ in the nature reader, page 155): ‘in the deeps are the violence and terror of which psychology has warned us. but if you ride these monsters deeper down, if you drop with them farther over the world’s rim, you find what our sciences cannot locate or name, the substrate, the ocean or matrix or ether which buoys the rest, which gives goodness its power for good, and evil its power for evil, the unified field: our complex and inexplicable caring for another, and for our life together here.’